It Will Be Beautiful-Secrets of Simplicity

A beautiful thing is never perfect-  Egyptian Proverb

I am a recovering (still in recovery-recovering) perfectionist. I want life, this blog and those I love to be have healthy, perfect, amazing and safe lives.

There is the hope if all is done right I can sleep well and die without any regrets. This is a huge goal of mine.. the dying without regrets part.

I will be incredibly grateful if when I pass from this life to the next there are zero regrets in the baggage I have at my bedside.

However, deep in my soul, at a level no one sees but me (and now you  I am terrified of not doing it right. By it, I mean living well.

There is a great deal of pressure not to make a mess of this one wild and precious life we are entrusted with. I want to live big and beautiful every day and more often than not I miss the mark.

Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?”   ― Mary Oliver

I am working to become more intentional and gentle with myself of late.

I hear the whisper of my Heavenly Father who tells me I will not do it right in my own strength. He tells me ever so sweetly I am loved in spite of my mistakes, my struggles and my fears. He sees them all now, and  has my whole life. He knows I am afraid of missing out, and making more mistakes and doing “it” wrong. He allows me to wrestle with Him and ask the hard questions when I can not turn off my mind and my heart is in turmoil.

He loves me and I was created in His image.This means I am good in His eyes and accepted by Him.

I surrender and celebrate in this moment with these words, one more time… I am not enough, but He is.

This Journey of Simple Abundance was to be completed in the month of October. It is November 29 and I am finishing Day 31. It is not perfect. I stopped writing because it was less than right.

Foolish.

Today, I place these final words on the page and say it is not perfect …but it is good. Finishing this 31 day challenge may not mean much to anyone but Jesus and I but we know we did it togehter.

It is not perfect but beautiful in the eyes of Abba Father and I celebrate who I am called to be with all of my imperfections and fears.

• For those of you who are in the midst of your own life challenge and want to quit- don’t. Finishing in all of it’s messiness is still good.
• For those of you who stumbled along this journey and stayed with me when you did not receive posts for days and then buckets in one day- Thank you.
• For those of you who commented and encouraged me and asked for more words- Thank you
• For Jesus- thank you for putting words in me and not allowing me to quit.

Blessings and Hugs sweet readers.

Nancy